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(2 fallen | l e a ves) [12 Mar 2007|07:00pm] i think i am going to write in you later. !!!

(l e a ves) [11 May 2006|10:59am] the f-bomb has dropped. someone help me stop writing/saying it. is it because i'm 22? i just need to puff some cigarettes and then i'm ryder in reality bites. reality bites is in fact, a reality.

(4 fallen | l e a ves) pensivity [11 May 2006|10:41am] so i have been sitting in starbucks for the last hour and a half. i haven't done very much but  i have re-acquainted myself with the girl who used to sit and lurk and be on the nerd all the time. this was when i lived in the death apartment. now i know why my confidence was so fucking low. i do learn interesting stuff. like the director of beautiful girls was also the producer of rounders. ... is that, in fact, that interesting? despite these little tidbits of really nothing, most of the time is spent perusing myspace or facebook pages of people i do not know. even more than nothing. what's even more than nothing? absolute zero below?i imagine how their lives are more fantastic than mine, etcetera. look at all the places they have been, the things they have seen. (that i haven't) it is not uplifting. it then makes me have extreme contempt for web communities like facebook and myspace, because how could anyone ever get to know anyone on the basis of a blog or some small box inscribed:about me . it makes me feel sorry for all of those people who don't cry for attention all the time, and how, in the end, all of their pages will be looked over because they are not so fucking narcissistic... and then i think how entirely weird i am for thinking about the lives of all these people i will never meet. but then i remember that i am american, so it's completely okay that i am fascinated with voyeurism... and then i think about how cliche all of that sounds. p.s. if that had been an opening line to any story, article, etcetera, i would lose half or perhaps more of the readers. . i wonder if anyone is still reading now? so i just took my last exam of one of the last semesters of my college career. i didn't give a flying flip. and you would think this would make me sad, however, it just makes me blissful. fucking blissful. deep and down south towns and intern projects, probably some billard fun, the boy i love, and an open road await me.

(l e a ves) [09 May 2006|07:54pm] some days are more otiose than others. that is my word of the day, and gosh darnit, i am going to use it. it has been a rollercoaster of a ride, this week. thursday i am done with school. save for the beatles, french, and acting for the camera this summer. i wouldn't really call that school.

(4 fallen | l e a ves) [04 May 2006|03:18am] everyone gets livejournal happy during exam time. it is a fact. wonder why? i am in a decent mood. haven't started studying. have to be at work in 24 minutes. exam is tomorrow. late night at waffle house. woot wah.

(5 fallen | l e a ves) [13 Apr 2006|01:08am] it is weird how someone else sees you ends up being how you define yourself.  and it is true. if i ever get another cat i am naming him buckley.

(8 fallen | l e a ves) mr. beast [09 Mar 2006|10:04am] [ mood | crushed ] mogwai was really good. i am glad i went. i wish my better half had been in attendance, but we can't always get what we want. its funny, anyway, you go to a show alone, and it never seems to end that way.

(7 fallen | l e a ves) im hungry and bloated. [28 Feb 2006|10:03am] so. i am sitting here in starbucks(pause while you all gasp... NOT)yes. i have resorted to elementary school notness because that is what kind of mood i am in. anyway. i have been here since about eight, and i probably will be here until about two. upon which i will have four hours of class, go see joan didion, and perhaps reconvene my affair with starbucks, tables, computers, and work. reconvening notness. my days are illustrious, never the same. NOT. my time is appropriated in an appropriate manner. i never put things off. NOT. college has taught me the perils of procrastination. NOT. i would really love to stay in chapel hill for the rest of my life. NOT. i am really loving all of my teaching fellow reading. dysconsious racism doesn't seem like bullshit to me at all. NOT. my stomach is happy from its apple and coffee combination. i learned my lesson from eating the combination before and promptly throwing up in a final exam. NOT. i've eaten, yet, am still hungry. anyone care to share their nots? ive come to realize we define our lives by what we don't have as opposed to what we do. at least, in my experience, anyway.

(6 fallen | l e a ves) feast [14 Nov 2005|12:47pm] who wants to stuff their face at my house? prethanksgiving thanksgiving. yeah. thats what im talking about. its at six. or seven. close to that. friday the eighteenth. turkey, mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, yams, cream corn... all the fixins! so come one, come all. 102b laurel ave. mapquest it. and then bring yourself and some booze. ha.

(25 fallen | l e a ves) procrastination is the darndest thing [13 Oct 2005|12:25am] Leave your name and 1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

(l e a ves) [03 Oct 2005|04:06am] http://cinema.gothic.ru/moviestills/house_of_1000_corpses7.jpg this is what i want to be for halloween. p.s.

(6 fallen | l e a ves) [03 Oct 2005|03:57am] mark your calendars. and mine. come on the 8th of OCTOBER(wow, you are here already) to see leites! (only one of the best people ever!) play with band sun coup. woo. also. come on the 18th to see john vanderslice and portastatic. it will be good times. im good company, i swear. how would you film a vampire movie? life is nice.

(2 fallen | l e a ves) [21 Sep 2005|03:55pm] ( be my lover. )

(5 fallen | l e a ves) [02 Sep 2005|05:17pm] a lot of people have birthdays this month. that means a lot of people were getting happy around new years eve. woo.

(2 fallen | l e a ves) [30 Aug 2005|09:05am] southside. we gonna set this party on fire. let classes begin.

(8 fallen | l e a ves) everything happens for a reason [13 Jul 2005|01:01pm] so my life has changed, drastically, i would say, in the last few months. i feel more like an adult, though i am becoming more financially dependent on my mother. fourth of july was good. it was good to be with family. and it was good to talk, air things out, really. i burned my foot on a motorcycle tho. yes, i, erica gilbert, rode a motorcycle. court the next day turned out all right. i just now owe my mother three hundred dollars. one hundred for court costs, and two hundred just for living. i hate it. so. the funky millhouse was put on hold for two days, upon which a new lease is in the works for kali, heather and i, sans tyler. this makes me upset. but, eh, what can a girl do? i still have to pack. and i have an eight page story due on thursday. eight pages of creativity. when i have none. thankfully i do not work until thursday. thankfully, i just e-mailed Danny Bland, coordinator of teaching fellow senior conference, and informed him of my inability to there, in charlotte, this weekend, due to extenuating circumstances. i am wicked retarded when it comes to reading calendars. meh. i love my friends. i need a haircut.

(2 fallen | l e a ves) my life is a sitcom [06 Jul 2005|05:21pm] List five songs that you are currently digging… it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words or even if they're any good but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artist and the song in your blog along with your five songs. Then tag five other people to see what they're listening to. 1. Denali: Do Something 2. Portishead: Nobody Loves You 3. Otis Redding: Try a little Tenderness 4. Radiohead: Let Down 5. Sunny Day Real Estate: Killed by an Angel Lauren. Alicia. Kali. Heather. Rachel. you're it. life is weird.

(2 fallen | l e a ves) [24 Jun 2005|07:16pm] it is fourteen minutes before i have to clock in to close at work. meh. i came to starbucks with the best of intentions at heart. (i.e. homework) instead i am listening to my archived dj show(that i have to critique.... how does one doooo that?) it's kind of homework, so i feel justified. justice. what is it? im sure you are all asking yourselves this question upon seeing batman. maybe not. you should check it out. it rules. i met a boy. he does hair. i think it fits. we shall see where it goes. i do like him. tho the fact that i keep reassuring myself that i do kind of freaks me out. it is also better that he is out of town this weekend, for i have real things i have to tend to. kali is in wilmington for the weekend, and somehow, i am bored. i almost typed that week-end, thinking i was in french class. whoa. (this has happened twice) (started french and creative writing thursday. french is gonna kick my arse.) mom's birthday on sunday. we're gonna let her think we forgot. heh heh.

(2 fallen | l e a ves) [09 Jun 2005|09:29am] im going to fayettenam today. my hair will be different when i return. right now i am waiting on my eternally slow sister. ;) everyone should go see CRASH. phenomenal movie with phenomenal don cheadle. did i spell phenomenal right? it's racially charged. which is the only way it should be. because everyone nowadays is so uptight and worrying about stepping on other people's toes that our hypersensitivity ends up creating more segregation and isolation in an already too self, single-serving world.... so say shit, and don't be scared of your neighbor. and i guess that's all i got.

(4 fallen | l e a ves) dernt. [03 Jun 2005|11:09am] good idea: washing clothes. no one wants to be the smelly kid. bad idea: washing phone. no one wants to be an idiot. DAMNIT.

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